readjustment

We've been busy!


Last night after I posted, Jeremy got a call and went to pick up a guy he's been working with who got kicked out of the place he's been staying.  So he came over and spent the night up in our rec room.  This morning we were able to scrounge up some clothes that were too big for Jeremy and pass them on to him, and we both went out to work.  Once I got home from work (which even though it was a fun day, I felt so messy because I was sick and crampy and just threw on whatever I could find that was comfortable), we had worship practice, and then my mom and I were "interviewed" for a video montage thingy for mother's day.  Talk about an awkward video.  I had like NO idea what to say and I look completely awkward on the video because Jeremy was making faces at me the whole time off camera.


Anyway, I'm sure that will be embarrassing.


Soo...since Angela shared that veggie burger recipe, and I happened to have pretty much all of the ingredients, I made it!  I only had to run out to get the cilantro, and I used red beans instead of black beans.  It was super good!  But my food processor was too small for the recipe, so I had to make it in batches.  Definitely going to be making that again - paired with whole wheat bread, a salad, and some fresh fruit makes a yummy and healthy meal!  I've never had a veggie burger before, and we're not vegetarian, but we don't buy meat very often so I think I'll be making these again!


So..between the video and the making of the veggie burgers, we went out to the grocery store, and ended up running into the guy who spent the night last night.  We still had his stuff, so Jeremy asked him what he was up to and it sounded like he had another place to stay.  Jeremy offered to run home and get his stuff for him if he could wait.  So we go home and I start making dinner while Jer goes back out.  Then I get a phone call.  This was the beginning of my poor attitude.  Jeremy asked if not only this guy, but also his twin brother, could spend the night tonight.  What am I going to say?  "No, they have to sleep outside of the abandoned building they found?"  Of course not!  So I just said to do whatever he felt was right.  He said they would walk over later.  At least we would have our dinner together, I thought.  Since all of my plans (working out, playing minecraft, etc) were "ruined" last night due to this guy, I was really looking forward to our family dinner, watching a dvd with my husband, and relaxing.  Next thing I know, Jeremy is home, and the guy steps out of the car.  I literally almost broke into tears.  I just wanted a nice dinner with my family.


But I also want people in my home to be welcomed as if they are part of my family.


So I stood in the kitchen and kind of gave my husband the slightly silent treatment.  I didn't want to start crying or sound upset by talking and make our guest feel like he was imposing.  I kind of got over it, but there is a part of me that is still really disappointed right now, as I type this downstairs and listen to Jeremy and Derek(the guy) play minecraft upstairs.  I am happy that we are able to help this guy out for a few nights, I am so thrilled to share dinner and our family and set a godly example for him, but I so was looking forward to our quiet evening together after having a week of so much company and events.  And now, I honestly just want to go to bed.  I don't know what else to do.  My husband kind of has to hang out with Derek for the evening and all I can really do is...clean.  Which I don't really want to do right now.


I'm sure it isn't helping that I'm kind of emotional and sick this week anyway.


Oh dear.  I'm glad that at least God understands me and I know I'll get to see my husband eventually.  And I'm so thankful that by His grace I was able to snap out of it and be hospitable.  We did have a nice dinner and Shea was so cute when we were praying!  We always hold hands when we pray and as soon as we told Shea we were going to pray, he mumbles something that sounds very similar to "dear Jesus" and then "Amen" and after he says that he lets go of our hands.  We all looked at each other in disbelief, but then he did it 3 more times in a row exactly the same!  It warmed my heart and amazed me again at how much he knows and can do.


Thanks for reading my ramblings, it'll be a few hours before I get much of a chance to talk to my hubby, so I needed to let it out somewhere!