stressed.

what I need to be reminded of right now...


I am sooo feeling stressed right now.  I mean, I've had an awesome week home with my baby boy doing things I enjoy like being a stay-at-home mom, sewing, visiting with friends, and the like, and it hasn't been that stressful other than the bit with my brother in the hospital, but that's kind of on the mend now.  But yesterday was a tough day parenting-wise - just because it was a long day for all of us, Shea missed his nap due to some people looking at the house at an inconvenient time, and he was so "off" the rest of the day (and honestly, I think Jeremy and I were too).   


Then, today church was hard to go to and I left frustrated.  But when we got home, Shea went down for a nap, and I played some baseball game on the PS2 with Jeremy (it is Father's day, after all).  And I beat him.  I'm not sure how that happened, but we were giggling and it was a lot of fun.  


Oh and this is a little unrelated, but I was changing Shea's diaper today and there was a pool of blood on his inner thigh!  Usually the most 'diaper rash' he's ever had is a little bit of a red spot, which goes away after putting some cream on it.  I think this area was hidden in a fold of skin, because I wouldn't have noticed it had I not seen the blood and pulled his leg back.  Poor kid!  I felt so, so bad.  Like one of those, "How could I be such a negligent parent??".  So I gave him a bath, let him air dry, put lots of cream on him and stuck him in a cloth diaper for an hour.  No wonder he hates getting his diaper changed, it probably hurts like nothing else!


Anyway, I'm finding myself kind of stressing and worrying about my job.  I know, know, KNOW that God will work things out in a way we can trust, but I'm just so anxious, and I really don't want to have to move in with my in-laws right now.  Hopefully I'll hear back soon so I can just let it all go to rest, but there is just so much uncertainty.


It's almost Shea's bedtime, and then my husband and I are going to enjoy some wine, cheese and crackers, and a movie.  Maybe that will help get me a little relaxed.  Think I'm going to go read my boy some books and get some cuddle time in before bed.  We played an epic game of hide and seek earlier.  It is fun to have an excuse to act like a 5 year old again.  :)